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just when you think…

so after everything that happened last weekend, this week seemed to be going alot better. luke was doing much better… apologized for the last few days. well today, thursday, he’s got that same look on his face… i cant help but wonder if hes back to the old shit again…. at the same time i dont want to start accusing when he very well could just be tired… i really hope im wrong and everything is great still.. he gets paid tomorrow, and we can not afford another mishap like last week :/ the baby will be here in less than 3 months and we are no where near prepared. we have tons of stuff we need to do/buy and wasting money on bullshit is not in the forecast!

I miss this…. this is when everything was perfect.  everything’s just fucked now & I hate it. the saddest part is I can see the ending, and it’s horrible. I wish you could find this person again, I wish you could see what I see.

I miss this…. this is when everything was perfect.  everything’s just fucked now & I hate it. the saddest part is I can see the ending, and it’s horrible. I wish you could find this person again, I wish you could see what I see.

So I’m 28 weeks, 1 day pregnant. Last Tuesday I went for my follow up ultrasound to see if my son’s ventricles have changed in size. Thank god they said everything was measuring completely normal! I recently switched my OB dr also, and am very pleased. My new OB is actually an addiction specialist along with being an OB, so it was perfect for me and my situation. Only 3 more months until baby Dez is welcomed into the world :) Luke and I had moved to Madison Hts about a month ago to live with his dad, step mom and 2 younger brothers…. sad to say it didn’t work out, but honestly it was best for all of us… well for Luke, me and Dez anyways. I feel much better being here with my mom, especially when she needs our help right now with the bills. Dez will have his own room here also which is right next to my room, so it works. Luke is still working and just received a $2 raise :) Things are going very well right now, I need to remind myself of that next time I think everything sucks… Aside from all of that life is good and I just need to keep moving in the direction I am and not look back or reminisce about times I thought were great but in reality were HORRIBLE.

So I’m 28 weeks, 1 day pregnant. Last Tuesday I went for my follow up ultrasound to see if my son’s ventricles have changed in size. Thank god they said everything was measuring completely normal! I recently switched my OB dr also, and am very pleased. My new OB is actually an addiction specialist along with being an OB, so it was perfect for me and my situation. Only 3 more months until baby Dez is welcomed into the world :) Luke and I had moved to Madison Hts about a month ago to live with his dad, step mom and 2 younger brothers…. sad to say it didn’t work out, but honestly it was best for all of us… well for Luke, me and Dez anyways. I feel much better being here with my mom, especially when she needs our help right now with the bills. Dez will have his own room here also which is right next to my room, so it works. Luke is still working and just received a $2 raise :) Things are going very well right now, I need to remind myself of that next time I think everything sucks… Aside from all of that life is good and I just need to keep moving in the direction I am and not look back or reminisce about times I thought were great but in reality were HORRIBLE.

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